Let's face it....
Every once in awhile you get the urge to look at some old photos....
listen to some music you haven't listened to in a long time....
check out old videos on your youtube account...whatever.
Your mind starts wandering back to the times, the places, the people that were at such and such an event in your lifetime.
You think about the loves, the hugs, the drugs.
The laughs, the haps and even the craps.
I'm a "mid-twenty year old".
What I can say so far about being a "mid-twenty year old" is that it seems to be the time in life when you transition between the "I just got out on my own" and "Man, it'd be nice to settle down somewhere."
The time when your friends become honorary family members if even for just a short while.
The time when it seems to be about community effort and "I'd go out but I'm broke" doesn't matter because you learn it's cheaper to party at home anyway. And someone's always "covering" you.
I was watching some old videos and some of them have people in them that I might not talk to anymore for whatever reason.
I don't look back on that and think anything other than "man, that was a good time."
I think that's what it's all about.
When you're in my position you can't do much more than try to have a good time wherever you're at.
I don't necessarily think you have to even be in my position to think that way.
I can remember living paycheck to paycheck....choosing between cigarettes or dinner....wondering what's next etc. etc.
But was I having a good time?
As we grow up we grow apart.
Whether it's miles, a dramatic event or different life choices and paths....
it happens to the best of friends.
But the one thing we can hold onto is our memories of the good times.
Is the party ever really over?
It doesn't have to be.
I don't think things like responsibilities should limit our abilities to stay connected to those we love and definitely not in our ability to enjoy life no matter what the case may be.
I don't think DISabilities should get in the way either.
Think about the last time you laughed.
Think about the last time you had fun.
Has it been awhile?
And why is that?
Do you hate your job? Do you hate where you live? Are you going to "achieve this" once you "get this"? Or "once this is over" or whatever?
What's wrong with right now?
If it's something you can change or fix why aren't you?
And if it's something you can't how are you handling it?
Truth be told: we all have shit to deal with.
For some, it's really stupid shit.
For others, it's big shit.
And yes sometimes we choose to deal with OTHER people's shit.
Are you alive?
Are you doing what you want to do every single day and enjoying it?
If not....stop doing that which is making you unhappy.
Stop dealing with the shit that you don't have to.
We tend to put more on our plates than necessary.
We tend to let others dictate what's best for us and what we should do because as much as we like to say we don't....we do care what they think.
And we need to stop that.
At the end of the day, the only person you can truly make happy with whatever it is you're doing is you.
The only person you should ever really want to make happy is you.
If you keep trying and trying to change another's point of view or mood and it's not working then guess what?
Accept that you can't change some things and focus on the things that you can.
Stop (and this is very important for me) feeling guilty for being happy.
Don't be afraid to stand up and say to anyone....I don't care who they are: "Hey man....I'm happy. Just let me be, ok?"
No, that is not too much to ask for.
If they're really worth it....they'll step aside.
More often than not, if they're not worth it, they'll stand in your way.
Your life as you know it right now may not always be that way.
Your life may be over sooner than you expect it to be.
If you think your life is awesome....keep it up.
If you think your life sucks....find ways to make it not suck.
But we all know it's not.
Be happy for what you have.
Be thankful for the little things that you might not even consider to be luxuries.
Know that EVERYTHING is a luxury.
EVERYTHING is something to be thankful for.
Because you never know when it might go away.
And we all know the "don't know what you got till it's gone" feeling....and it sucks.
So appreciate it.
Appreciate your life and the people in it.
Don't take ANYTHING for granted.
Have a good time.
And film it.
Because there's nothing like looking back someday and laughing your ass off.
At least that's my experience.
But mine is the only one that's going to matter in the end.
And yours is the only one that truly should matter to you.
And if we ever merged experiences or will in the future....
I'm sure it was and will be a good time....
That's how I want to remember it anyway.